What does my blog mean for me? I’ve been asked this question million times but I’ve never given the best and comprehensive answer. Well, if I tell people all about my blogging journey, it will take a long time to cover the entire story.
My blogging journey started in a far 2008 year, when blogosphere had just begun gaining momentum. My first blog, but it would be better to say online diary, was a diary on LiveInternet or Li.Ru how it was called in those times. I had my unique audience, content was published everyday and my readers left loads of comments. I wrote about really crazy and quite banal things about which 15 years old girl could think about. Today this blog is still exists but it’s closed for everyone except of the owner since 2010 because in this year I opened my second online diary on the Diary site and here I was facing problems with growing my audience and finding the right things to blog about. Basically I was posting about my cosplay adventures (this is just another story), my university problems and thoughts and about my first unrequited love (yes, I spent 2 years suffering of my OH GOD first unrequited love). Second online diary was put aside in the beginning of 2013 when I was on this part of my life journey when I didn’t know what to do with my life, I had no goal, no strength to do anything, I was going on only because I didn’t want to stay on one place and not because I had a goal of a lifetime. I was suffering. I didn’t like what I was doing with my life and free time, my university, and the only one thing that helped me to take my will in a fist was the small unexpected light at the end of the tunnel – the idea that after graduating from university I will more likely be studying in a fashion design, the dream that was with me since the last school year. That’s why in March 2013 I opened my third online diary, that can be fully called a blog, where I could start realizing myself as a fashion designer.
Thus, after counting all the numbers, you can finally understand, that I am a blogger for 7 years. I started from the bottom, from a small online diary of a little girl, and continued with my personal online space, my personal blog which I am supervising for 2 years. Believe me or not but it is the longest hobby that I’ve ever had, which now can be called as a part-time job.
Answering the question what does the blog mean for me: it does mean a lot. This is my personal place where I am not afraid to be a person I really am. During a very long period of my life I always wanted to change myself internally and externally. I always was in a great search of being similar to others, I tried to look like some famous person and all because I didn’t like the person I was. But thanks to a small online part of myself I reached a new level of self-perception – you won’t understand how happy I feel myself now! Blog showed me that I don’t need to be similar to others, I shouldn’t have doubts in myself and in my strength, I shouldn’t seek someone to feel myself complete and needed – I’ve already had everything of this, all I needed was to feel it and to accept myself for what I am. But my blog without content is just another white site on the net with big black letters in the headline: I was able to open my cons, my ideas, my plans, my interests to myself and to the world thus filling this naked web-page with dark and rainbow colors.
That’s what my blog means to me. My blog is a very important happening in my life, and I am very pleased having it. My blog is a proof that I, being able to resist public opinion, general condemnation and lack of understanding of the blogosphere, could create something really important and useful for myself and, as a consequence of my confidence, something really important and useful for others.
Что блог значит для меня? Уже не в первый раз меня спрашивают об этом, и каждый раз я никогда в полном объеме не рассказываю о его значении. Просто, если рассказывать все от и до, то это очень долгая история.